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Tuesday, September 18th, 2007 | stress

One of those posts.
So this is one of the reasons I wrote that post on September 15th and mentioned that I wanted to explain what my own processes have been (and are currently) as the entrepreneur that I am.
Because I don’t think I can get passed the idea that a blog is a journal and a journal is for getting out the ideas and thoughts and stuff and stuff.
So here it is.

I recently went to burning man and, wouldn’t you know it, there’s something they didn’t tell me.
Re-entry.
I haven’t heard of this until the last few weeks and I’m not too pleased to get the full idea of what it really means. What I mean it say is that as a so-called “business person” I am supposed to come back to after a vacation and get things rolling again. Because, as it is right now in my life, if I don’t work, I don’t get paid.
So there’s an element of stress for livelihood and being behind on work that is present.
What’s worse is this heavy and weird emotional aspect that, for me, is all about my past, my tendencies, my patterns of coping (which are usually not helpful or useful) and how these all really get in the way of my productivity.
I have been having to clean up my own messes. I wish I could just jump right back into work with ease but the re-entry has been tough.
Another fun twist to this whole “back from Burning Man” re-entry thing is that many of my clients are burners and they are going thru the same things. You would not believe how many cancellations I have had in the last few weeks.
Which, of course, makes is something of a challenge for me continue staying in a frame of mind that keeps me open and knowing that I will get the money I need to survive.
I have taken risks and know my actions well enough, too, to know that I am also to blame for the low appointment count lately. I hope I don’t drown before I can get to dry land, so to speak.
I have faith that I can keep up the trend of continuing to be in business and creating a stream of clients and income. I intend stronger foundations for my growth and am looking to create them now. These foundational pieces look like business plans and staying with the schedule and office location/ intentions I have for business right now.

I think Transformation is the name of the game for Burning Man. It’s many things more than a simple festival and now I am home with some treasure to sort.
In the meantime, in a figurative sense, the treasure is covered with the dust of my own storms. I need to do some cleaning. Need to clean up my vision of what it is that I want my life to look and feel like.
I think that’s why I’m finally just spewing out this these sorts of thoughts now when it has been such a chore in the last year. I feel that I’ve loosened up my tie to the point that it’s not even on anymore and I’ve rolled up my sleeves because the cuffs were too tight.
I’m tired of feeling restricted by my own ideas of what sierra-as-a-business-person-looks-like.
When I check in with the wise parts of me, in meditation or in reading or mentoring - the information is logical and clear for me: be patient, keep up with work as it is flowing right now, don’t stress out, don’t push any part of your life too hard in any direction, understand that “your game goes down” with the application of new and better techniques and that soon all will be clear and frustration will be way way down.
Yeah.
In the meantime, I find it imperative to connect with other bodyworks, healing peoples and counselors. Good friends are also like oxygen or food right now, as well as my family. Self-care in times of transition are so essential because, as I have found, many people and situations can change so that once-dependable friends and fixtures are no longer dependable. Self-care; because often I find myself alone (not lonely - except when I am…) in times of transition.
So with that…

I assure you that I will continue to talk about the spine.
If you have any ideas as to what you might like to hear from me in these massage freek posts, I will go ahead and write some good stuff for you.
Some areas I was thinking of covering are:
Self-care - concepts, lifestyle and some helpful health-full tips
Water - energy, logical stuff, examples “case studies”, stories, crystal formation, hydrotherapy, home hydrotherapy, ice
My rants - opinions on health care, lifestyle, business etc.
Anatomy - education and my experiences with treating specific parts of the body
Stretching
And more that occurs to me as it comes.
I would love to hear from you. Drop me a comment.

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